Friday, May 15, 2009

"Don't hate me because I'm beautiful..."

No, I'm not referencing myself here. ;)  I moved a LOT growing up.  I was pretty adaptable though and for the most part just threw myself into something fun and went with the flow.  I sometimes felt like though there were people who hated me because I came and fit in and had fun and whatever else.  I could never understand that....until now.  So, maybe it's just because I feel like my life gets more chaotic by the second...but there's this one person (will not name names) that I'm starting to really loathe.  I look at their "life" as I see it on my blog and they seem SO perfect.  They always have cute hair, cute clothes, cute body, cute kids, fun stuff going on...like a million things going on and they seem to balance it oh so perfectly.  Now, I don't actually know this person very well, so all I see is what they put on the blog...but it really makes me kind of "hate" her.  Of course I don't REALLY hate her....has anyone else ever been here?  It's a sad strange feeling.  I think it must have something to do with the green eyed monster, who is a dear dear friend of mine unfortunately....

7 comments:

Lara said...

Yeah...I think we've all been there. I'm pretty sure I even blogged about it once.

Just remember that a lot of people don't put their real life on their blogs...at least not a very broad picture. You see what they want you to see. I'm sure that whomever you're talking about (and I know it's not me, because I think you KNOW how not together I am...I'm sure you hear me screaming at my kids all day long through the wall) is just painting a picture of her life that's only partly true.

rachaeljanae said...

OK, Kristy, I know it's me. The cute clothes was a dead giveaway!

I only post the happy funny things because for me, my blog is mostly for entertainment and keeping the grandmas happy with pictures and funny stories. Maybe you see the purpose of your blog as different than she does. No one wants anyone to think anything bad about them and we each have total control about what goes on the blog. It might mean that she's trying to convey that "perfect" picture, and it's possible that she's even covering up something. I've know a few too many "perfect" people who fall apart (i.e. divorce, depression) because they can't keep it all up.

Rae said...

Kristy, I definitely know what that feels like....in fact, there was this really random blog I found of someone I didn't even know, and as I started reading, I started feeling really really bitter. It ate at me, I'm telling you! And I STILL kept reading it! Two days later, I realized that I just needed to stop reading it. And that was the end of that.

And do remember that a blog is only one side of things. It's what people choose to write about! I wouldn't say that I'm strictly a cheery nothing's-wrong blogger, but I WOULD say that I DO choose not to post when I'm having a day from hell, you know? I just know that what I have to say won't be uplifting to read....and so I usually try to wait until it has passed and maybe blog about it retrospect.

Lastly--Kristy, I love your blog. I love that anyone reading your blog knows that while you are human, you are doing your best to be your best. That's absolutely read-worthy.

Audrey said...

Ok, so I know it can't be me, because I definitely don't have cute hair, cute clothes and cute body! I do know how you feel though, I think we've all been there...

Kristy said...

That's totally how I feel about you.... just kidding!

You know, it's hard to be happy for others when your life is not quite the way you want it to be...

I get it - but I still think you rock.

Kate said...

I also have a green eyed monster that is a close friend. Great post.

Noni said...

Kristy,

I have so many blogs that I love to hate!!! I wish I wish I wish. My blog(if I really did something with it) would so not be too pretty and right now that is sometimes too personal. I'm not ready to air out all the real world!! Glad there are others that have this same feelings!!